we're on our deathbeds with faded stories to be told.

I'm gonna live a million lives until I find my destiny,
the person deep down I know I'll forever wanna be
To see, Just me, at 3
A.M in the morning when the world has shut its eyes,
look behind my cold eyes and know there are no lies
no cries, failed tries
makeup will be my only mask of disguise
tattooed with sacrificial commitments of stages in my life
a victim of ink with some cut with a knife,
people that have shone and faded with me through all the strife
hearts once held on now lipstick stained sleeves
simply now empty lockets with lost keys.
memories of a bestfriend and promises of forever,
maybe i'll see her at the end
or maybe forever just meant never.
whatever. she'll be in my heart together.
forever could be right now, too slow for the human mind to register
that half the time a dream a week ago diminishes through another
a mother with a sharp tongue
a brother that wants to be number one
we grow cold, old, the fence is up and our beautys' been sold
we're on our deathbeds with faded stories to be told
regretting ever forgetting all the weekends that felt like something
but in the end were they really anything
just a few more pretty friends and a brain cells with empty shells
to throw to the floor and be kicked under the rug
right now i wanna throw in the word drug
the forever consuming enemy and ally
it'll be your alibi of the jagged path never missed
once so sweet but always the tranviliqist
of a disguise that'll see you loved, feel so above
from the world that you leave behind
when you look back, the track is black
and your hearts in a chokehold with a dagger through the middle
the cats on the moon playing for you its sad little fiddle
to set aside the seven sins that see your soul kill itself
just to free itself from the host that hid its shine
with a line, the wine, the meaningless grind
but there you are with your hands together with a confession
it's a secret session between the one thats always been there for you
we don't know what it is, who it is but something thinks we're better
we're the the trendsetter who was once a bed wetter
so big with the sweet rig, always keen to have a dig at the filthy pig
with the soul that'll see it through,
before you even half get to know the future you.
So within those million lifes and all the past and future strifes
may one day the blood spill from my eyes in vain
and may I one day never feel the rain or any physical pain
because then it will be, that i'll meet the real me
the one after all this, ill never wanna waste a minute and not be
truly free.
i guess we'll all one day see.

111; i've lived :).

(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Drank Alcohol
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex


SO FAR :2

LEVEL 2

(x) Are/Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 6

LEVEL 3

(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-Worker
(x) Seen Someone/Something Die

SO FAR: 9

LEVEL 4

(x) Had/Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
(x) Been To Paris
(x) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 13

LEVEL 5

(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone BECAUSE of Facebook
( ) Been In A Moshpit

SO FAR: 16

LEVEL 6

(x) Taken Painkillers
(x) Love/Loved Someone You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back and Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 20

LEVEL 7

(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone Mudding (Off-Roading)
(x) Played Dress-Up

SO FAR: 24

LEVEL 8

(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work/School

SO FAR: 29

LEVEL 9

(x) Watched The Sunset
(x) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 31

LEVEL 10

(x) Been Tickled
(x) Benn Robbed/Vandalized
(x) Been Cheated On
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 35

LEVEL 11

(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car/Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 38

LEVEL 12

(x) Had/Have Braces
(x) Eaten A Pint Of Ice-Cream In One Night
(x) Danced In The Moonlight

SO FAR: 41

LEVEL 13

(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been Obsessed With Post-It Notes

SO FAR: 46

LEVEL 14

(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 51

LEVEL 15

(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recentley Coloured With Crayons/Coloured Pencils/Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 56

LEVEL 16

(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 60

LEVEL 17

(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sunset/Sunrise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
(x) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 64

LEVEL 18

( ) Crashed a Party
(x) Have Travelled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating/Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 67

LEVEL 19

(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
(x) Screamed Penis Or Vagina
(x) Swam With The Dolphins

SO FAR: 71

LEVEL 20

(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/Ice Cube
(x) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn the Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 75

LEVEL 21

( ) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done/Attempted A One Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 4 Hours
(x) Recentley Stayed Up For A While Talking To Someone You Care About

SO FAR: 78

LEVEL 22

(x) Picked An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 82

LEVEL 23

(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have Had More Than 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 85

LEVEL 24

(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
(x) Been Told Your Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 89

LEVEL 25

(x) Caught A Fish And Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/Been Asked To Make One
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 93

LEVEL 26

(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someones Name
(x) French Braided Someone Hair
(x) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

SO FAR: 99

LEVEL 27

(x) Rode A Rollercoaster
(x) Went Scuba Diving/Snorkelling
( ) Had A Cavity
(x) Been Blackmailed
(x) Blackmailed Someone

SO FAR: 103

LEVEL 28

(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Upstairs
(x) Licked By A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 108

LEVEL 29

( ) Been Shot At/Or Shot At Gunpoint
( ) Had Sex In The Rain
(x) Flattened Someones Tyres
(x) Rode Your Bike/Driven Your Car Until The Light Comes On
(x) Got 5 Gallons Or Less Worth Of Gas

TOTAL: 111

"I've Done X Out Of 132 Stupid Things"